Fear

In the last few days I have been getting ready to speak at our upcoming girls of purpose conference in Tampa. It will be my first time speaking in front of a large group of people. I have had a lot of fear come over me in the last few days. The thought of failure fills my mind and the what if’s are very over whelming. As I search down deep inside of myself I know that this is right where the Lord wants me. He wants me to trust Him and not myself. I know that I can’t do this without Him. I also know He doesn't call the equipped, He calls the willing. He looks for the people who are broken that say yes. The Bible is filled with these kinds of people. For instance David was just a Sheppard boy, the smallest among his brothers, but his love and trust in the Lord outweighed His fears. Or Joshua who didn't look at how big the giants were in the promise land but looked at how big his God was. They were ordinary people just like you and I. There wasn't anything special about them. But God on the other hand saw greatness on the inside of each of them. God likes to take ordinary people and do extraordinary things, so He can get the glory. He is wanting to take us out of our comfort zones, and do what He is asking us to do even if it means we have to do it afraid. So even though this fear consumes me I am not going to let it win. I will just keep my eyes on God and remember that He is the great I Am and He will hold me up with His victorious right hand.

Nikki Mayer

It’s Time

I have been standing on a promise that the Lord gave me for about a year now. After so much time it is hard to keep the faith that it is really going to come to pass. The other day He gave me a word, It’s Time. It was a very exciting word, but as a few days went by and nothing happened I started to wonder if that is what He really told me. During my 

Morning Prayer time I was asking Him if it was really Him that gave me the word, because nothing seemed to be changing or getting any better, and this is what he said.

When a woman goes into labor and her water breaks, she goes to the hospital. When the Doctor checks her and sees she is ready to start pushing he says it’s time. At that point it is time to start pushing. It can be very difficult and painful. The Doctor is there to guide you and let you know what to do. It is time to dig in deep and push with everything you have. Just like the Doctor helps you through the delivery, the Lord will guide you to your promise.

We have to be careful because a lot of times it is the darkest right before our breakthrough, and we are tempted to give up. Just like a baby the in the mother’s womb it is dark. As the baby comes down the birth canal it becomes brighter. When the baby is delivered there is light all around them.  It may look dark right now, but don’t give up. God has great things that are just around the corner. Just remember It’s Time!

Nikki Mayer

A Parents Love

I grew up in church, and as a child I sang the song Jesus loves me, and then as I got older I learn about how God loved us so much that he sent his only son to die for us, (John 3:16) and that no matter what we do He would never leave us or for sake us. (Deuteronomy 31:6) Even though I was taught this my whole life I couldn't really wrap my head around that kind of unconditional love.

One night I was putting my two year old daughter Miley to bed, I was just about to shut off the light and it hit me how much I truly loved this little girl. There was nothing she could do to make me love her any less. At that moment I heard God say to me see how you love your daughter? You are my daughter and I love you even more than that.   Just like you love her no matter what she does, there is nothing you can do to make me love you any less.  That is the first time I understood what unconditional love really was.

As a parent there is nothing we wouldn't do to keep our kids safe. We would even die for them. That is what God did for us when he sent Jesus to die on the cross. Also as a parent we would love to give our kids everything that they want, but just because they want something does not always mean it is good for them. As a mom I have to look at the bigger picture, sometimes even though Miley might really want something I know it may not be good for her. There are also times when I know the timing is not right and if she will just be patient, she can have something even better. That is how God is with us. He can see the bigger picture. He knows the beginning and the end. If we can learn to trust him he will give us a life better than we can ever imagine.

Jeremiah 29:11-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Nikki Mayer